The song "No Longer Slaves" keeps playing over in my mind. The words say "I am no longer a slave to fear. I am a child of God. From my mothers womb you have choosen me, love has called my name." It goes onto say "I am surrounded by the arms of the Father....my fears are drowned in perfect love. You rescued me and I will stand and sing I AM A CHILD OF GOD!" Last night we sang these words at youth group and I stood in the back of the room and cried.
I used to be so full of fear. Childhood abuse and neglect left me with wounds that threated to drown me. There were days that fear gripped me so strongly I would fall to my knees in a puddle of uncontrolable sobs feeling as though I couldn't breathe. I have been there....I lived there. I was so afraid to face my fears thinking that if I did they would wash over me with so much force that I would literally drown from the weight of them. But through the years God has shown me that He is big enough to handle all of my fears and insecurities. He has shown me, through the stories of others who have gone before me, that I am not alone, that He will never leave me and that He sees me. Psalm 30:11 says "You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy." (NLT)
As I listened to the youth group kids sing the song "No Longer Slaves" last night I felt such a peace wash over me. I felt so free and light as I sang the words "I am surrounded by the arms of the Father...my fears are drowned in perfect love"---MY FEARS are drowned---not me. He has me, He loves me and He can handle ALL of my fears.